Ser and Estar

My last post was pretty dreary to say the least. I thought I’d post an update so you all know I’m not living in constant misery.

Parks news article #1. We are still dogless. Animal Services put me in contact with a woman who rescues dog with Parvo. We’re hoping within our apartment’s weight limit will come our way via her.

Parks news article #2. Two days after I was fired from DG’s, I called Eric because he asked me to. I had no intention of asking for my job back. I called because I didn’t want to burn any bridges on my way out. When I called, before I said more than, “Hey Eric,” he told me he’d like to put me back on the schedule for Monday. We had a small talk and I asked him to please, please, tell me what I’m doing that bother him before he spontaneously terminates my employment. Most of my friends think I’m nuts for retruning.
I came back because making some money is better than making no money. I’ll just hang out making sandwiches until I hear back from some of the places I applied to.

I think they biggest thing I have taken away from this whole thing-having the carpet ripped out from underneath my feet-is the lesson God is constantly trying to teach me: Trust.  Sometimes, people who are secure in what they’ve built up for themselves need a trust lesson. How can I be getting what I need from God, when I think I can be fulfilled in “the world”?

I am learning the difference between joy and happiness. I knew the difference in my head but now I am learning it in my soul. Yeah, I am really, really unhappy right now. I work for a crazy old guy who can’t keep his pants up and refers to his employees as “whatchamacallit over there.” But there’s an attitude I can cling to. Nothing will fulfill me but Christ, and that is a powerful notion. Powerful enough to obliterate the dispair I feel when I consider my circumstances.
It makes me think of Spanish’s ser and estar. Ser, if I remember correctly, is concrete. I am a girl. I am American. Estar usually connotates some action or temporary state. I am in the computer lab. I feel hungry.
Estoy, I am unhappy.  Soy, I am in Christ.